maybe it was the cold.
maybe it was the lack of sleep.
maybe it was the nervousness.
there was this really heavy, pressing feeling strapped around me so tightly,
i couldn't stop trembling compulsively.
i feel like i'm crying inside and am fighting so hard to keep it in.
nobody would understand anymore.
i don't even understand what i feel.
why is this hurt still so gripping.
every time i look at u.
