i am supposed to be doing my math assignment now.
but i cant concentrate.
i cant stop thinking how clogged by brain is. and i cant stop thinking of u.
i remember how i used to peer towards the field. hoping to find a glimpse of you while i trained with the girls.
and i remember how much i love looking at u while the match was on.
i'll forever remember that green shirt. different from everyone else.
u were the special goal keeper. and i was so proud of u.
how did i lose it.
day and night i ponder.
i can't sleep.
i can't do my work.
i cried and i cried.
i took a ride, i stared at the sky.
hoping for an answer.
but i couldn't get one.
its like rummaging through your whole house
trying to find something that is so important to u.
u try again and again and again
but u just cant find it.
people around u start losing hope.
they believe u shld just give up..
but.. it was something so important to u..
your life could change.
things wld never be the same.
we didn't talked much. my heart ached.
i could feel so much hopelessness when we hung up.
i am such a disappointment. u deserve better.
right from the start. i told u, i wasn't good enough.
but u believed in me.
and yet..
i wish i could disappear along with the shooting star.
alone.
and never come back.
u deserve so much more.
so much more.
