yes. i live my life for myself not for anyone else.
no matter how pain something are gonna be or is. i have to keep it in me. i must learn to control. its over. efforts are spilt yes. i cant brood over it no more. today will be e last time i felt pain. hurt. tears over him. i want to make it my last.
remember. if i ever fall again. tink of yau. no i cant brood. yes its over. i've got enuf of bad grades becos of him. i know i cant brood over it no more. he made my heart ache so bad. yes. its over.
it has to be. i dun care how u gona do it ping. u gota to. he's not worth crying for. its just e wrong guy all e same. please.. heal. take your time. dun rush.
hate will go away. yes. it is going away. i dun hate him anymore. i just feel pain. and more pain. now i just got to overcome this pain.
i shall not slack no more. i shall mug. till i die. and if i get below 10pts for my o levels. god is going to give me a much better guy.
i weeped thru e months. all e pain u've and u'll never know. becos u are of so happy in your love life now and its good for u. yes.
i must do it. any other way. i must learn to control. come on. it aint dat difficult gettin over a jerk rather than a good guy rite? keke.. yes.
be strong. e happier he is. e more happier u must be over his happiness. as in not for his happiness. but for your own happiness..
come on. today is sunday. tho its 8am and u din sleep a wink. its time to study if u cant sleep. and life starts today. MY own very life. i am not going to live for him anymore. he's just a mean old chap who doesn't give a damn bout e fcuking things i've done for him. so. sweep those dirt away. no matter how i deal wif it. as a nitemare or deceiving myself. i gonna get over this. I HAVE TO. no other way out.
happiness is in my hands. futurity-paradise is sure to come.
pick up all e pieces he threw. pick dem all up and pull yourself today. one day. i'm gona beat him. i'm gona be 10 times happier than him. yes.
once again. thanks my frens for being dere. i love u all. i know i've been dumb for far too long.
online experience sucks. i'm not comin on in near future. i want to be mugging. i want to be top. i can do it. i've got no one to burden me down this time. yes. it's my final lap after all e falls. i'm gona make it to e end. i am. even if e world ends tmr. i have to know that i am happy dat i manage to pull myself together and be a whole all over again.
i deserve much better. i dun have to be in self pity. I HAVE TO FORGET. yes. i need to.
